"It's a new dawn, a new day, a new life..."

Sorry for not being diligent in blogging in the past few weeks. I've been so busy with my move back to New Orleans and graduation. The reality is slowly setting in that I'm now a doctor. That means I am accurate when I say I'm Dr.SunShine.504. Lol. Last week was such a world wind. I covered 3 cities/states and saw many of my classmates for the last time in life. My week started with a flight from Cali to New Orleans on Mother's Day. It was bittersweet to leave Cali. I was ready to be a doctor and no longer an intern, ready to go back home to help with my mom, but not ready to leave my beau. I guess what makes things easier is that he was coming the next day. By Tuesday, I was on another flight out to Chicago. Wednesday was filled with a credentialing course at 8am, graduation rehearsal, and capstone/award ceremony. Needless to say I was beat. Thursday we did a class dinner cruise on Lake Michigan which was beautiful. By Friday my fam, beau and friends were in town and I spent hours showing them around town. The experience was one I will never forget, both for good and bad reasons. I won't talk about it much because any time I even think about it I get all teary eyed. It's really hard to get ready and go through with such an important event in your life without a woman figure present. My mother, sister and nephew were unable to attend my graduation... a day I've always feared and can now say that I conquered but not without teary eyes.  I may not fully understand the card I've been dealt but I thank God for strength and even the courage to attempt to conquer this day. I thank God for the support  system that show up because little do they know, it meant the world to me. Needless to say... I'm a doctor now. That sort of makes me squeal and get that tingly feeling on the inside every time I say that. Lol. I assume that feeling gets pretty old after all the hype dies down. I really can't believe that I'm DONE with Chicago and returning would be due to choice and no longer due to obligation. Now it's back to my life and the responsibilities I have set before me. I have a slew of student loans, paperwork for credentialing and just random things to get together before my party in less than 2 weeks, but I do indeed plan to get dooooown for this party. So exciting. :) After all of this I just wonder what's next? What lies ahead? I'm going to do a residency but then what? This is the time of my life where the dynamic of everything changes. I'll go out and find what I call a real job. In fact it's now more accurate to say it's a career. My concept of family will one day change with the departing of some and the entering of others. Although it's a seemingly exciting time in my life, it's also a fear. The unknown has always been one of those areas that boggled me. I know that I can't worry or fear the future especially because I know that "The will of God will never take me where the grace of God won't protect me." The sky is the limit. To infinity and beyond...